In 2012, I wrote this blog on my website. It seems an eternity ago, and so much has happened in the interim. In 2012, it had been 9 years since I started writing the screenplay, Sacajawea, The Windcatcher, from a manuscript I began in 1989…
Yes, 31 years ago, I sat on Fort Rock in Three Forks, MT, watching the eagles fly above me, knowing in my soul I was here to write Sacajawea’s story.
“April 3, 2012 — What makes us happy? From childhood we’ve been aware of things that give us joy. Oh, the specifics change over the years, but one constant is the feeling we get when we do what we love.
Life isn’t easy. It holds many challenges and sometimes a lot of pain. At times, it’s easier to align ourselves with the sorrow, especially when it shows its face daily. Friends come and go, families get misunderstood and circumstances can be devastating. When we’re down and out, what will bring us home? Home to the warm smiles, the big embraces, the cozy backdrop of a crackling fire…
‘It is essential to our well-being, and to our lives, that we play and enjoy life. Every single day do something that makes your heart sing.’ ~ Marcia Wieder
Wouldn’t it be amazing if every day our hearts could sing, despite what’s happening around us?
I will soon be stepping into the last third of my life. I have experienced motherhood, grand-motherhood and I was fortunate enough, even after great heartache, to find the love of my life. But, over the last nine years – oh, my, what a difficult nine years – I have been trying to achieve my “heart’s” desire. Writing, creating, pitching, imagining, pitching, visioning, creating, writing, writing…
What is my heart’s song? To be a writer – to share the stories of people from history, and capture the essence and purpose of their lives.
This blog is a place where my heart will sing. It has not been easy getting here – in fact, it’s been down right hard. But, nevertheless, here I am writing you on this day, April 3, 2012. I am so excited about where this path will lead, and I know in my heart this is what I must do.”
In 1989 or even 2012, I had no idea this journey was going to be so completely transforming. In the beginning, I thought I was just writing a story of an Indigenous girl. And, what emerged was an awakening that has taken nearly half my life. I have been shown messages in the clouds, visions and wonders and words that were so deeply spiritual, I usually had to walk a little further to understand. And, I’m still walking.
I would never trade this path, nor wish it had been different, for what I’ve learned is that the heart’s song is already in me – I just have to work every day to embrace it. Every day I must do something that helps me listen.
What are we called to do in our lives? Certainly not what’s easy, not what’s obvious, not what makes sense… We are called to a spiritual melody just for us, and we have a lifetime (it may take that long) to learn to hear it.